Script frenzy. A small victory, a small bust.

Well, I made 3 pages of progress into my script for Script Frenzy. I love the format, it's how I see stories in my head, like a movie... but, I'm so new to it that I still don't know everything I'm supposed to know to write a good script.
So, Script Frenzy year 1 is a learning time. I need to get a book that teaches all the different nuances of script writing and get it all learned over the next year.
Maybe I can do better for next year's script frenzy.
The other problem I've had is that there is so much for me to do, but because I'm so tired I'm not getting any of that other stuff done either. It's taking A LOT of energy just to maintain the chaos I have going on in my house and in my life... I'm working really hard to make a dent of order in it, and then being so tired from that that it all falls back into chaos again.
Of course, since I'm so busy and soooo tired and can't finish anything I start... I keep thinking about going back to school and getting a degree in Psychology.
Yeah, I'm crazy. Perhaps that's why I love Psychology so much? :)

artsy craftsy loneliness whine DON'T READ.

I need more friends who are ARTISTS and writers and musicians and creative.
Maybe I need more geeky/nerd friends. Those are rare and precious things.
I'm happy to have a couple of friends that I can "talk shop" with about Sensory Processing Disorder. THAT is a life saver.
I'm happy to have a couple of people around that I can talk to about Psychology, which I love!
I'm glad to have the few people around that are very creative that don't put me up on a pedestal for just being creative me.
Sometimes I think I'm just meant to walk through people's lives and not be attached. Give and take, live and learn and then move on. But, it makes me feel sad. I desire attachment. I'm jealous of people who have friends from grade school or middle school or high school or college and even mission friends. I wish I could know what it is about me that means that people pass through my life without needing to look back? Why don't I have the social skills to keep friends for long periods of time? I feel weird and broken.
Facebook and blogs have helped me a little bit. Makes it easier to "stay in touch"...but, do those people still really feel like my friends without the face to face contact?
I'm very tired and frustrated and sad, so I probably shouldn't be typing while feeling like that.
Just needed that out of my system.
SO I will stop.

Day Two of Script Frenzy

Day Two of Script Frenzy and a page and half in... that's not too bad for me. Maybe on Monday I can carve out a few hours and catch up. I should be 15 pages done by Monday. It took a really short time to type up one page of script. I like it. It's new and something to learn and get used to... but, I like it. It's how I see things in my head anyway. Just like a movie. :)